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Hello:
I wanted to let you know that I stumbled upon your blog a few days ago and have become a bit obsessed with it (in a good way). I know you hear this a lot but I will say it one more time. As I read through your blog (starting from the beginning) I could not believe how similar we are. I mean from your background and childhood, family, struggles with this, guys you like, sex you like....I felt like I could have written it. I am also in my mid forties - obsessed with working out, eating right etc. Just on and on. Well I know you hear this a lot.
I did want to say that your blog has helped me to feel more comfortable with who I am. Like you - I have struggled with this most of my life and mainly felt ashamed and guilt about it. Your blog has helped me to feel better about it. I guess knowing I am not alone in this is a big thing. My family and commitment I made to them is the most important thing in my life and not something I would ever give up. Though I know from experience that these feelings and attractions will not go away. I am not sure that I would really want them to. I think this struggle is part of the "price" I need to pay for the life I have. Sort of my cross to bear.
Two things different about our experiences:
1. I have never really been in love with another guy. Your relationship with Ross felt more like a love story than just sex. I think I long for this but up to now my relationships with men have been mainly sex. Physical connections. Sometimes deep connections but not love. I liked reading about your relationship with Ross. Even though it did not work out long term - it still sounds like it was worth it.
2. I am also not completely into anal - but bottoming can be great under the right circumstances with the right guy. Don't rule it out. Try it again some time. I have had a few good experiences with it. Yes - with young hot guys who want it (motivation enough sometimes).
Well, I am not totally sure why I am writing this. I just felt like I needed to after reading your blog. I guess to say that there are a lot of guys like us out in the world so keep up the blog dude! I am interested in hearing about your struggle as I go through mine. I justify my life because I think overall I am a good guy. Good dad, good husband, good provider and good citizen of the world. I don't think our attraction to men makes us bad. I felt bad about it for a long time and it ended up making me bitter and more removed from my "real" life. I think if we can accept this for what it is we will be better off. I know easy to say and hard to do.
Thanks.
I wanted to let you know that I stumbled upon your blog a few days ago and have become a bit obsessed with it (in a good way). I know you hear this a lot but I will say it one more time. As I read through your blog (starting from the beginning) I could not believe how similar we are. I mean from your background and childhood, family, struggles with this, guys you like, sex you like....I felt like I could have written it. I am also in my mid forties - obsessed with working out, eating right etc. Just on and on. Well I know you hear this a lot.
I did want to say that your blog has helped me to feel more comfortable with who I am. Like you - I have struggled with this most of my life and mainly felt ashamed and guilt about it. Your blog has helped me to feel better about it. I guess knowing I am not alone in this is a big thing. My family and commitment I made to them is the most important thing in my life and not something I would ever give up. Though I know from experience that these feelings and attractions will not go away. I am not sure that I would really want them to. I think this struggle is part of the "price" I need to pay for the life I have. Sort of my cross to bear.
Two things different about our experiences:
1. I have never really been in love with another guy. Your relationship with Ross felt more like a love story than just sex. I think I long for this but up to now my relationships with men have been mainly sex. Physical connections. Sometimes deep connections but not love. I liked reading about your relationship with Ross. Even though it did not work out long term - it still sounds like it was worth it. 2. I am also not completely into anal - but bottoming can be great under the right circumstances with the right guy. Don't rule it out. Try it again some time. I have had a few good experiences with it. Yes - with young hot guys who want it (motivation enough sometimes).
Well, I am not totally sure why I am writing this. I just felt like I needed to after reading your blog. I guess to say that there are a lot of guys like us out in the world so keep up the blog dude! I am interested in hearing about your struggle as I go through mine. I justify my life because I think overall I am a good guy. Good dad, good husband, good provider and good citizen of the world. I don't think our attraction to men makes us bad. I felt bad about it for a long time and it ended up making me bitter and more removed from my "real" life. I think if we can accept this for what it is we will be better off. I know easy to say and hard to do.Thanks.
