
I'm spiraling downward..down to the dark place, again. I'm trying to keep busy, but, being happy is just not in the cards.
I'm thinking maybe..finally..therapy may be in order. But, where to start? How to find someone..someone reasonably priced (or free) who I can feel comfortable with, confide in. I mean, when I tell someone that I've been cheating on my wife, with guys..isn't the ultimate destination going to be to express those feelings to my wife? To make a decision? Isn't that where it will ultimately head? I don't want that.

"I'm sad, depressed, unhappy all the time. Don't find happiness in anything."
Then his response: "Why?"
"Well.. I can't tell you why..it's a secret."
That simply won't work.
I'd love to find someone to spill my guts to..unfortunately..right now, I'm being literal.