Yet another guy who sent an email with commonalities!Finally!
I will say that your 'story' [finally started from the beginning] is so much like mine in many, many ways.The part about being 'odd' in high school, not having any girls [I had a two year relationship with someone who was relatively 'popular' at one school, but we never did anything but kiss and pet; I went to four highschools]. I didn't go to college [yet] however, but went into the Navy.
I have always had the desire. Met some really great guys in bootcamp, but when are you going to do anything there? !
After, however, it took me only a few months, and I met a great guy named Mike. But it was the reverse for me. I fell for him, and he kept me at a distance. We did quite a bit more than you and Dave. Then, he transferred to Hawaii. And I, for 'moral' reasons, decided to go straight. ;-)
I met a string of girls, but never had the desire, and was, quite frankly, petrified of it! And I kept falling emotionally for straight guys. Dave, Dave, Monty, then Tom. The second Dave and Monty and Tom were the ones I told about me; and none of them turned on me. But they didn't pounce either. Each of them were quite hot. But I was hotter, I think?!
After the Navy, I met a gal whom I then married. And since we've been married, I did the same thing. Can't share these guy's names, however, but there were four of whom, over the last eighteen years, I developed quite strong emotions for. The last was A. He was like all the others rolled up into one. Beautiful. We were friends for eight years. I think he had some kind of 'urge' toward me, but was afraid to admit it, because of the religious component. I haven't seen or talked to him in three years. He hurt me pretty badly.
I never did anything with any of these guys, but affectionately touch them, which they never 'disliked'.I'm afraid of two things: AIDS or other std, and getting 'outed'.
I too LOVE my life, my wife, my children. I could not possibly hurt them. I am still enamored with the male form, however. I keep mine polished and buff, and also look damn good for 45, most folks think I'm in my early 30s, except for a touch of gray in my beard.
I guess I told you all of this because I felt I needed to reciprocate!
Here's a pic of me. Please don't post it! [unless you cut my head off and take the background personal stuff out of it!]. (I've elected not to post his pic)
I don't even really know why I'm writing, except that I thought I was the only one like me on the planet. I live in HOUSTON for pete's sake, and I've never met like-minded men.
Argh.
